Sometimes when I go to sleep at night I think about the births of both of my children. I remember I was absolutely terrified when Fifi was born. I was clueless! It seems like a dream, but I try to go through it in my mind because I never want to forget. Yes, there was pain (back labor and epidural issues) but it was miraculous and beautiful. My Mom was a life saver that first week. She was when my Son was born during an unplanned C-section as well. I was induced at 39 weeks and he was just so big. I also think about what my life was like before them. I never knew I could love so fully and unconditionally. About a year before I conceived Fifi I didn't even know if I wanted kids. I was so focused on career and dance. Although I still love design and dance, my kids really are my world. All I want is for them to be happy and provided for.
A Mother's love is a beautiful thing. Now I get it. Before I was so dead set against all things domestic. I thought I was conforming or being dominated. But I can honestly say I love taking care of my family. It feels good to know that you are the one they can count on. Sure, it's a lot of pressure and so very hard at times, but I think when you become a Mother you step up, no questions. You handle your business by any means necessary. So, I cherish the late nights and the early mornings. The tantrums and the smiles. It's a beautiful thing to see the world through a child's eyes.
I love to kiss and smell them when they're sleeping.
These little people that we've made, they are amazing.
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